Anyare?

So di ka namamansin. Di ka nagrereply sa text. Di ka sumasagot sa message sa FB. Sige push mo yan teh. Hindi naman sa demanding ako. Pero, friend. Anyare? Busy ka lang? Kahit ilang salita lang my friend. Why are you like that? T_T

Mukha ka namang masaya.. sa FB. Nakuha mo pang magstatus. Hayups ka. Talaga. I hate you. I hate you. And yes, di ako affected sa lagay na 'to. But I'm just wondering. What's up with the sudden change? O.o

If this started from when I messaged  you two, and teased you. I still could not understand. Why? If it's not, then what did trigger this shit that it slightly tortures me right now emotionally. Then maybe, you found somebody else. Yuck. Girlfriend peg? Hahaha. But. Huhu. Maybe yes, there's someone new that gets your attention. MAYBE THAT'S THE REASON WHY YOU  are seemingly  inspired  and happy in facebook. Crap.

Then, well I must carry on.

Ang ganda pala ng smile ko, saktong nakakaganda lang ng araw 

The more I think of you, the more I can't let go and move forward. :/

JUST FRIENDS

FRIENDS.
FRIENDS.
FRIENDS.
FRIENDS.
FRIENDS.
FRIENDS.



JUST
FRIENDS.

He doesn't necessarily "like" you, but is comfortable being around you.

Realization to the nth

Actually I had this realization 2 days ago. Haha. After several times of asking myself why, why? I think it all comes from one thing. That everything is just sexual. I tried to get the main point of what have happened, but yeah nothing really had happened, but there is something. So, after linking all that has happened which is really nothing but has something, it all boils down to the possibility that it just something sexual and for a short time. There's no affection in there. Nothing but sexual. Daguldol had had alcohol moments. Alcohol slightly heat it up. But yeah, maybe at the peak its an exception since we already had our rest, we're already alcohol-free. But no! Maybe he still was under the influence of alcohol. Push! Even at that moment when we dipped in the sea water, that joke is nothing. Sexual that means nothing. Those Bora happenings. Well, those are just fleeting. No inhibitions daw eh. Go lang ng go. So. Period.

And. Also. I think this is waley na talaga. Hello. There are a lot of beautiful ladies he could meet at the office.  His field has also a lot of cool and beautiful girls that he could meet and could make damoves with if he wants to. So waley. Good thing that it has been kinda off my mind now. I already stopped thinking about it. Well much less compared to that before that every free time, every goddamn chance I could get to have a tulala moment, that even just closing my eyes I am asking about it and become stressed after. I'm just too overacting. Well, I really am. HEHE.

So. Bahala na si batman. Yey. Gahd. Ayoko naman na sexual lang yung meron. :/ Ok, I am just assuming and hindi nga maganda yung judgment ko. But still, never ko talaga gugustuhin na parang dahil tawag lang ng laman at libido yung like sakin. Kahit hindi mukhang ganon, kasi wala naman talaga akong sexy body and all. Kahit na beautiful face, kumbaga, 75% normal na tao lang akech. Pasang-awa na maging pasado sa standards upang maging tao. Ayun. Keri na. Pero basta. Huhuhuhu.

Sana hindi ganon. Sana hindi lang ganon na sexual. Sana mas may malalim na rason. Kasi kung ganon mas maganda. Hindi na nga lang din ako magpapahayag. Bahala na. Come what may.

Cause I can't stop to think about it and feel something

And Yes! I need a new entry for this. HAHAHA. Huhuhuhu.


Ok. Gahd. So di ko alam. LOL. Naguguluhan na ako. Ayoko magtiwala sa sabi-sabi ng iba, Ayoko din magtiwala sa instinct na lalong nakakagulo ng isip at uhmm... puso ko? Hahahaha Kasiiiiiii namaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnn. I can't explain why THIS SHIT bothers me. Like, no way? I don't know the exact words of her. Pero this goes like "Feeling ko talaga sayo may something si TOOT. Kasi lagi ka niyang hinaharot. Ako waley talaga." Or parang "Feeling ko sayo may something si TOOT." Gusto ko sanang sabihin na "Pls. Elaborate..." But my mind directly said, "Hindi talaga."

And I defended pa sa sinabi ng isa na "Parang hindi yun JOKE." Having told them about some experiences. But I never really took it as a joke. Hello, edi sana hindi na ako affected ngayon. Huhu. Pero myself said na Hindi talaga yun joke. Pero oks lang kasi friends friends naman. But I'm still affected. Why????

Yo, hindi ako manhid. Pero gosh. Ang hirap bitbitin nito na ako lang mag-isa ah. As in WTF. Ikaw lang (ako) nag-a-assume. Gusto ko ng kasagutan. And ito pa. Pag kinakausap ko siya online or sa text. Parang feeling ko pahiya ako at ang kulit ko. pampam lang ang peg. Huhuhuhu. Bakit wala kang emosyon? :( So does my instinct failed me? So everything meant nothing?!


Lord, again, I'm asking for your guide. Please help my heart and mind stop if everything is all falling into pieces, into nothing. Cause I can't stop to think about it and feel something. :/

Movie Date with HS Friends

And so 12 hours ago, I had a movie date with my high school friends. We watched Despicable Me 2. And it  was legit awesome! I thought I could get some sleep on some parts of the movie. But no! There were no bland moments! All was cute and funny! And of course, do I need to say that Minions are all cute and they amazingly brought the movie to a higher level. I mean if not for them, the movie would be totally nuts! I love the minions forever! Excited for The Minions The Movie. Heard It would be released on December 2014. Hooray! I hope I could have some in real life! Want Minion babies!!! :D

After the movie date, Oh god. We really had a hard time choosing for some place to stay in. We walked all the way from SM the Block to SM Annex then just headed back.  Finally, we decided to stay at Soya Bar. Revived the Bora Experience of Tina to the ever MIA Ryan. The last time we saw each other was 6 months ago. Not too long, but still too long. Compared to the times we, T and R see each other. Like about every other week? Worst is one month. Nope, we're not that clingy. We just love and enjoy each other's company. Teehee. <3

And so, not too long, we had our dinner at Yellow Cab. Since our two guys want pizza and pasta. And us girls could not have any choice anymore. Guys do really get hungry easier than girls. So there. Of course, we had our chitchats. Finally, so happy to see Ray eat!!!! Hahaha. He really gets conscious to the way he eats. And no one really knows why. Oh well. At least, we finally saw him eat!!! Yay!

Mina needs to get earlier since she lives south. Ryan also left earlier since he need to some errands. Three of us left and we're excited and so giddy to find Minions!!! SM was already closing so we have to go to Trinoma. Someone told me that Minions are available at Toys R Us. So we never hesitated to go. Unfortunately, Minions are sold out. That's how cute are they. They are sold out everywhere!! What's left in store is the Gru and that little cute kid which I called love. Hahaha.

Anyway, Tina is so craving Milk Tea. Gong Cha!!! Still had our talks. Funny is that you can really tell how we have aged. It's been .. what???7 years since we graduated. Not counting our experiences together from high school. Random stuff like love, relationships, and uhmmm, adult topics? Hahaha. Gahd, I would never forget how Ray described me as a-**B** and maharot. Active and adventurous? Oh, I remember my curiosity days from Baguio. And from that, I can surely tell that I am NOT! I am passive!!!!! But I could say that I welcome the idea. Open to possibilities? haha But it bothers me that I give that expression to others. :/ But, I dunno. I can't really tell from now. But, OHNOES. :/ I still can't imagine. I would be the one who will always be inviting? :O And from the early convo at YellowCab! That, according to Ryan, I would have lots of offspring. OHNOES. I hate. Hehe.

However, however weird that talk looks like, I am happy that we're open like that. :D

All images from TMAM instagram. :)

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Wala lang. Hindi nakakatua ang mga kaganapan. Paarang nararamdaman ko lang yung dati na feeling. Huhuhuhu