Totally Missed Genuine Colleague Happiness

Late post: October 29, 2012

It could have been happier if my other two colleagues are still in UPA. These two people are really my favorite people in mywave. Humble, funny, witty, honest and one thing we share in common is how to make a good laugh over simple things. Back in the day, life was really not that miserable (char) and unhappy. We can tolerate it a slong we have fun over things and over people around us. But now, we can't have that anymore. They have been transferred to another team in EW as resources are extremely needed from our wave to support the SS transformation. It was also their decision to be moved to EW. Interest over work has greatly been affected since the day they underwent the long tulala moments in the company. We all share the same sentiments over the kind of work we have-routinary, no progress, no career growth, and so much so forth. All we are asking for is life at work. We experienced that during breaks and during chat over ST. We share that by using each other's personality, and by then we know we really have a click. But then, world has separated us. Living us only two in UPA.

I was informed that they will be resigning for the same old reason that they want life and growth for their work/career and life. They want to pursue what they really want. I don't have any grudges against them. If it's only that easy to find a job and get a money, I would leave this company behind and go for what I really love to do. And that's another story of my emo life. Hahahaha.

Two best colleagues I met have gone to UPA to visit us for an unexplainable reason. Friendship? Could be. But whatever it is, I'm glad I have met them and that we had a bonding moment with them again for an unknown Nth time in our lives. I really missed the solid laughters, laitan portions, and all amongst us. How I wish I could still meet people like them--humble, funny, witty, honest and grounded on how to make a good laugh over simple things.

I hope it's how the world always works.

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The Awesome Mt. Batulao

Disclaimer: Photos are not mine and was taken from the Facebook account of my Friends TM and AM.

Last Friday, 26th of October was the planned date for us to climb Mt. Batulao. However, due to the storm "Ofel," we decided not to pursue and reschedule it for some time--Safety first policy. The next day it was all sunny and so they have had decided to climb Batulao the next day.

I really wanted to experience Mt. Batulao since it is undeniably exquisite in pictures. You'll be amazed the moment you browse for it over the net. Go to Google search engine and type in Mt. Batulao. You'll know what I'm talking about. It's like a live art, a painting that is real. Images looks like it has been photoshopped! People in it are like they were intentionally put into it via the lasso tool, cut and paste method in PSD.

Sunday came and the plan was ready to be made. According to Pag-asa there is a probability of 20-30% rainfall. (Thank God it did not rain! :)) The scheduled time was supposedly 4:30 AM at Mcdo External. Dunno what happened, but we left the place at around 5:30 AM. Got a back to reach the bus terminal along Taft routed to Nasugbu, Batangas. Actually, we just followed the itinerary posted on the blogs just to know how to get to the place.

We were dropped off at the EverCrest Resort. There were kids ready to be tour guides for the adventurers ready to experience the beauty of Mt. Batulao. Take note, there were only at around the age of 13-16. We got that 13-year old boy named Marvin as our tour guide for Php 300 for the whole day. We did have a ride to the jump-off point via a tricycle. The fare was PhP20 per person. Then we started to trek at 9AM.

The whole experience was really amazing. I can't explain the fun, excitement, and awe that I had while going to the summit of that lovely place, my love Mt. Batulao. It's also a plus that I have with me my high school friends that made my experience more fulfilling and extremely fun.

This mountain was not really that difficult to climb compared to that of Pico de Loro. Pico was uhmm.... too intense, I could say. This is from a beginner's point of view. Hello, Pico was my first climb fellas, And yet its difficulity is more thann I ever copuld imagine as a first timer. We used the new trail-old trail way in Batulao. Old trail was really hard. But Pico was way more difficult! So I guess, old trail is still okay. Hahahaha. If you want to see the amazing view from the peaks of the ranges of mountain in Batulao, you must have to go for the new trail first. After you have experienced the new trail going to the summit, it's up to you whether you want to go for the old or new to climb the summit of this Mountain. I tell you, once is not enough to experience this mountain. I think I have been moved by this mountain. Unexplainable bewilderment and admiration while you're on top.  This has been by second climb, and this is my favorite mountain as of now. Well, I'm still want to try to climb other mountains like Daguldol, Marami, of course Pulag, and so on. But Batulao, grabe ganda mo talaga. :):) Andali mo pa akyatin. LOL. Yun yun eh. Hahaha.

My high school friends aka climbmates/co-adventure seekers/pseudo-mountaineers now tagged as "Tropang Biglaan".

Almost past a quarter of the new trail has been done.

Almost done!!!! A few steps to go before reaching the peak of Mt. Batulao--the midpoint of new and old trail. ;)

At the peak.

More adventures in the mountains, sooooooooon! :)

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Blonde. Lady Blonde.

Late Post: October 23, 2012

Because tonight, I am blonde. Me wants to have a hair color other than my natural hair color (black) ever since I was in college. I was thinking of an auburn or a chestnut brown, but never did I think of blonde and neither would I choose that one.

The thing is my mom bought a wig for my sister's impersonation on the 5th of November. She would play as Psyche, the most beautiful among the goddesses other than Venus. Mom bought a white silk cloth and a golden yellow cloth for the costume. She bought a golden yellow blonde thinking that gods and goddesses have yellow hair. And BOOM! We now have a long golden yellow wig in the house.

Consequently, it kinda amazed me to try this one. Me and my sister just played around.

Below are pictures trying to achieve the looks of Lady Gaga and Nicki Minaj. I also want to try to be Taylor Swift, but it's kinda hard since my wig is not curly/straight as TS', whatever it is. LOL.

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!#@%$^^*%$%

Pati sa career ko. ~@!%^#^$%&*^(&). Wala na akong masabi. Masyadong magulo ang buhay ko. Ewan ko ba. Minalas nga siguro ako. Hindi nga lang kasing miserable ng buhay ng iba. Pero nasa malas side pa rin. Hindi ko matanggap ang estado ko ngayon. Ayos na sana. Pero mali lang talaga.

Sobrang mali sa lahat ng anggulo ang napuntahan kong manager. Kumbaga kung ano yung mga naririnig mong kaiiritahan mo samanager mo, angkin lang ng manager ko ngayon.

Punyeta. Yun lang ang masasabi ko. Corrupt, sobra sa hangin, mayabang, masama ang ugali. Per sige na nga. . Considerate sa mga leaves, pero lagi namang nanunumbat. Eh in the first place, karapatan iyon ng empleyado.
Hindi ko naisip na magkakaroon ako ng ganoong manager. Sa bagay, hindi mo naman talaga maiisip ang isang bagay kung hindi mo gustong mangyari. Pero shet, siguro yung team namin ang malas-malas sa manager. Naka-ilan na kaming palit. Pangatlo ata.

Siya na ang pangatlo naming manager, wala pang isang taon ang nakalipas. Una, ayos na. Pangalawa, mas ayos na sana. Ewan ko ba. Siguro gusto kaming bigyan ng pagsubok at karanasan ng nasa itaas. Pero sana matapos na ang lahat. Siguro masasabi kong sapat na kung ano ang nakikita at naririnmig ko mula sa kanya. Hindi man kasingdungis, at kasing alingasaw ng mga napapanood ko sa Imbestigador. Pero utang na loob.

Ayoko namang maranasan yung ibang mga karanasan sa trabaho gaya ng abuse, at mas matinding powerplay sa working environment. Dahil unang-una hindi ko ineexpect yun sa mismong company na pinapasukan ko. Pwede pa sana sa client-side. Mas kaintindi-intindi. Pero kapwa Pilipino, sa ganitong kompanya. Wagas-wagas talaga iyon.

Hindi ko alam kung masyado ba akong ideyal sa buhay, sa career life. Siguro bumabawi na lang ako dun sa aspet o na hindi ko gustong-gusto yung trabaho ko. Pero sana ayos naman yung work, compensation at manager. Eh sorry naman hindi ako masyadong pinagpala sa manager.

Iisa lang hiling ko. Sana makuntento na siya sa career life niya para di kami maging affected bilang container ng mga frustrations niya sa buhay.

At please lang, kung ganon ang pinagdaanan niya sa trabaho niya noon. And for a fact, it is wrong in any angle, why does he repeat it all over again. Kung bopssy nag boss niya dati, bakit kailangan ulitin niya yun sa mga taong hawak niya kung nasaktan siya dati? I know hindi kailangan maging sensitive lalo na sa work.
Pero kahit ipareview pa ito sa Labor Relations, sobrang mali talaga.

Hindi ko maatim na makita ang mga pics sa work, kasi masyadong fake ang lahat. Kahit nakasmile mga tao, alam naming lah at na there's something wrong. Mas maganda pa tingnan yung mga pictures from college. Nakalimutan ko na nga lahat ng dapat kong itype dahil masyadong gumaan yung vibes ko.
:( Hay. super miss them.

Kung sana puro masaya lang yung pwededng mangyari, parang nung college lang,. Yung alam mo lang yung mga bad things na nangyayari sa paligid mo. OK na yun. Aware ka sa mga maling mga ganap sa lipunan. Para lang malaman mo na mas maraming namomoroblema na mga tao dahil sa mga punyetang makapangyarihang kapitalista na nagpapayaman.
Hay nako.

Sa totoo lang. Iniisip ko pa din na hindi ako deserving na maging Iskolar ng Byayan. Hindi ko nagagamit kung ano yung mga napag-aralan ko nung college. Pero im proud na binuksan yung isip ko na tignan yung mga bagay in a different perspective. Ang hirap nito iexplain. Pero alam mo yung feeling ganito yung pagtingin mo tapos doon s apagtingin na iyon ang tingin sayo ng iba,m rebelde, masama, abnoy. Well, infact, sila yung nagpapakatanga. You are correct pero wala ka na lang magawa kasi yun na ang naset ng mundo.

Haaaay. Ok na sa akin na alam mo kung ano yung tama at mali. Na  hindi ka dapat na mo yun lalo na kungpapa-api kahit na boss g respeto, dignidad na ang nakasa-alang-alang dito.
Ang hirap ng nagbabaitan, nagsusunoud-sunuran s ataong mali. Mahirap mag-isip ng ideyal, peor kung pwede namaing maging tama kahit papaano. Bakit hindi pwedeng mangyari yon??????
Anong pwdeng maging solusyon? Maghihintay ka na lang ba sa pagbabago? S akapalaran mo? Paano kung ang ka[alaran mo ay sadyang mapait at masakit? Parnag pag-ibig.. Hanggang kelan ka maghihintay para maging kahit papaano ayos at maging ideyal ang mga bagay?

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Muli (xx/1000 insecurities and fear)

Umiiral na naman self-pity ko. Nakaisip na naman ako ng dahilan kung bakit hindi ako makakahanp ng pag-ibig na matino. Unang-una wala pa akong nakakasalamuha na lalaki na nagbigay ng tamang pagtingin sa akin. Feeling ko tingin lagi nila sa akin isang joke. Una, dahil lagi ko ring napupuna ang mga kamalian ko. Ayos lang sakin yung mga biruan, pero di nila alam yung hangganan ko. Minsan kasi ako din ang bumibigay. Para bang narerealize ko bigla, hindi na to tama. Parang sobra na. Sarili ko nga ginagawa kong tampulan ng mga biruan, paano pa kaya ako seseryosohin ng mga lalaki diba. O kahit hindi ng mga lalaki, ng mga kaibigan ko. Kaya naman,. iniisip ko kung mag-aasawa ako. Masasaktan lang ako. Feeling nila super woman ako na kaya konmg sakyan lahat ng bagay. :( na ok lang gawin sakin yung mga abgay kasi hindi ko kayang manindigan outloud. Hanggang sa loob lang, pero hindi mailabas.

Hindi ko alam kung produkto lang ito ng takot,m ng mga insecurities. Pero hindi ko lang maalis s aisip ko na mas ok poa na magisa ka na lang kasi maging miserable at masaktan ka habang may kinakasama ka. Siguro nga swertihan lang. Kanya-kanya lang yan. Pero bahala na ang taas.  May purpose lahat ng bagay. Pero sana kung ano man ibibigay niya sakin,. Hindi masakit at pagsisisihan sa huli. </3

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My Subconscious Hit My Heart

I met you again in my dreams. It's really weird how you came into my dreams. I never had a thought of you before I slept yesterday. Maybe its the subconscious. Did I miss you? Or am I just longing for that happiness and my subconscious just picked you to keep me company in that scenario.

I was on my way to work. I saw a guy and thought it's familiar. I am supposed to wait for a jeepney, and there you are waiting too. But myself did not resist to tap him. Instead of waiting for a ride that will bring us where we should go, we had a short talk . Yes, together we have a ride. Destiny was our transportation that had brought us to my happy ending dream.

I asked you "How are you?" and you said that you are married. Back in college, I remember how you hate the concept of marriage. You don't believe why two people need to get "married", thinking of the negative things that happen between two people after doing so. And so I have never believed you in my dreams. You showed me some ID to act as an evidence. I memorized that lucky girl's name in my dream for stalking purposes. But now I can't remember it anymore. I could not sill believe your story at that moment in my dream. Then, I asked you where you have to go. You invited me to go have some drinks. I asked where and you pointed the place near Ever Comm. --Royal  Place. I hesitated as I need to go to work. But my heart did not hesitate. I joyfully accepted your invitation while thinking about possible reasons to my boss as to why would I be absent or get half day at that day. Hahaha.

We crossed the bridge along Ever Commonwealth. You really acted childish that time. You acted like you're going somewhere else. You were sweetly playing around. We reached the place. Sorry, I could not remember the details anymore. But my dream skipped to a university. You invited me to be in that place. You were still studying. You went back to studying in my dream. While going upstairs, I asked some people about you. And I realized that what you said about yourself a while ago wasn't true. I was informed that you are an excellent Economics-PolSci student and is a good writer (can't remember the details, sorry). It was a no surprise for me as I have known you are as a clever writer. You really have a good though sometimes weird principles. And that's why I have a crush on youm just so you know. :) You really have a good perspective and opinion on what is happening around. Maybe it was brought by your HS education.

Moving forward, after knowing that you quite lied to me, I confronted you in a good way. That scene in my dream is so pang-teleserye. LOL. I approached and told you, "Nagsinungaling ka... Pero OK lang." Then I hugged you back. And you know what came after???? In a black background, a typographic said "2007 Married."  So lame! But whatever. Hahahaha. How I wish it could be real. And that's how my dream ended. Hahahahaha.


It's quite nakakakilig, especially the moment you were telling me that you are married. I acted the way I can't be in person, you also did. I would just see you act that way had you like the person or know the person too well. May be that's why my subconscious projected it that way. Hahaha. For me to assume. Oh well. I'm still waiting for the happiness. I know it's you. It could be better or none at all.

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New Phone Question Mark

I promise I would buy a new phone once I have had a love life. I'm eyeing for an iPhone or possibly a Samsung unit. But I realized it would be such a waste of money purchasing a  new phone given that it's unusual for me to text or call people via cellphone. FYI, i don;t mind if I left my phone at home since there's no one whom I anticipate to text me that important. This is kinda lame, I know. Family is important too. But there not that techie/cellphone-type of persons. I call when I'm going home late via office phone. And besides, wanting expensive phone is what I'm talking about. I did not say that cellphones are useless. Expensive phones are impractical and unreasonable for me as of now. What important today is I can text, whenever I want to just when I have credits. I don't usually have credits. Hahaha. So, there.

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My Amazing Cebu Trip

Been to Cebu last weekend and it was totally a blast! I didn't expect anything about the trip. I packed three hours before the anticipated time we should arrive at the airport. Actually, I was not supposed to be at that trip. My friend T just invited me as another office mate of theirs had had to attend a sister's wedding. And so, I'm the lucky one that has been invited as her replacement for the said trip. Plane ticket was not a problem. Figure it out, guys! Hahahaha. Anyway, the day on itself was just a normal day for me. It's like I'm just going to Quiapo, Divisoria, or Laguna sonsidering that Cebu is just a an hour and a half  hour trip via plane. We arrived at the Mactan-Cebu International Airport at around 11-ish PM. We directly went to our hotel and had our rest. Hence, make our elated selves to explore what Cebu has to offer.

Our van was scheduled to arrive at 8:00 AM. We hardly had a good sleep since we slept late and light as we were quite afraid that we might not catch the scheduled time for the rented van. We left the hotel at exactly 8:30 AM. We just had to use the 30 minutes of our van rental in favor of having a short and mini breakfast.

Our first stop was the Plantation Bay Resort and Spa. At the main lobby of the resort was a bunch of Koreans. We thought that a K-pop group is having a press conference. LOL. Roaming around the place, I thought the name Plantation Bay speaks for itself as the bay was like artificial and just man-made, "planted". But I realized just now, that it doesn't connect anything at all. HAHAHA. A lot of Koreans were there at that time. Koreans, from my observation, are among the top tourists of Cebu City. They're like sprouting mushrooms as every spot we go to, they're presence is undeniably loud.

Second stop should have been the hotels, but we decided to not proceed anymore since they can also be founded in Manila. We preferably went to Alegre Guitar Factory. As you enter the place, you can directly see a few people crafting guitars.

Third Stop was the Mactan Shrine located in Punta Engaño. There you'll find the Magellan Shrine, a memorial tower to commemorate the "great" explorer Magellan who was killed way back in 1521. You can also find in Mactan Shrine the Lapu-Lapu Monument, a bronze statue erected to give honor to our own Datu Lapu-lapu.

Then, we went to the popular Magellan's Cross, a Christian cross planted by the Portuguese upon arrival of Magellan and his company in Cebu. I never thought that a lot of people goes in the building which houses the cross itself. Opposed to the pictures I saw over the internet. There are also women who sell candles for which I don't know what the purpose is. Split-Christianity, maybe. People believe that the cross has a miraculous power and so they offer candles in exchange of their personal wishes and prayers.

It was around 1 PM when we arrived at the Magellan's Cross. We had our late lunch at CnT Lechon restaurant near SM Cebu. Cebu is known for it's delicious lechon. CnT is also the infamous restaurant which offers the most delicious among the delicious lechon in Cebu. Well, it's according to the reviews I've read over the internet.

Fort San Pedro became our next stop after we had our lunch. Then, Cebu Heritage Monument and Yap-Sandiego Ancestral House. Cebu Heritage Monument was really great! I think there are tourists who may have not appreciated the bronze sculpture as it's location is kinda off. Nevertheless, I may say that it's really a great piece that showcases the culture and history of Cebu as well as of the Philippines. For the reason that (1)  Cebu is one of the the first place that Spaniards have arrived to and conquered and (2) it's also the place where Christianity was first introduced to the people. The monument was a huge bronze sculpture with different highlights about Cebu, the name of the monument "heritage" speaks for itself. I wonder how it is preserved by the local government.

On the other side of the street, just a few steps away from the monument is the Yap-Sandiego Ancestral House. On the outside of the house, you might not be interested and pay for the entrance fee. As you catch a glimpse on the inside of the house, yes it's old but no doubt you'll be interested to learn about the place. The house was built in 16th century. The structure of the house was maintained as it was since 16th century. The furnitures and fixtures in the house, as well as the paintings in the walls, were selected by the current generation of the Yap-Sandiego family. You must visit the place to learn more and feel about what I am sayingit. It's really interesting! However, the thought that the government raise the roads a number of feet higher due to flooding makes me sad. They never thought consequences that might happen to one of the tourist spots/heritage of Cebu.  Much like what happened to the DPWH tactics outside UST. UST has raised their flooring to avoid water penetration and flooding. But the stupid local government of Manila also raised the roads outside  the university. Consequently, UST is more prone to suspension of classes because of the flooding.

Moving forward, we attanded the 2:30PM mass in the number one place that all tourists should visit, the Basilica Minore del Sto. Nino. The church is more than magnificent!!! With the altars placed in front, and the murals in the ceiling, no need to say more. Clueless are we that the priest was not inside the church. There's another sanctuary outside where there's also the altar and where the priest celebrates the Mass.  So everytime we stand, we also turn our backs to face the priest outside the church.

We proceeded to the Tabo-an Market to buy danggit, dried mangoes, otap, and other possible pasalubongs. We never knew that danggit smell really stick to your clothes after. So we proceeded to the, Taoist Temple smelling like danggit. It's really quite shameful that a bunch of woman has passed by us and were talking about us that we went to Tabo-an and there line was "Been there, done that". HAHAHA. Kalerkey. Taoist temple in Cebu was the third taost temple I went to. First was in Davao, then Baguio. We went straight to Cebu Tops after to have sight the city of Cebu at night.

 

Even if we stink like danggit we giddily tried the Sky adventure in Crown Regency. Cebu trip will never be complete without trying this one. It's really fun! Edge coaster really made my hands so sweaty, though. But a must-try! Conquer your fear, as they say. :) Zipline was so-so. At first it was scary, but then you'll get by. Skywalk was also a great experience. My knees are shaking while looking down the mirror glass where we stand on. Ahh, it made my day complete!!!! We spend 2.5 hours to experience the whole sky adventure.

We had our late dinner at the Lantaw, a floating native restaurant. Dinner was really sumptuous! Though the day was really tiring, ending the day without having a different kind of dinner was not a good idea. And so, we spend 16 hours of the day just to experience all these great things I had experienced that day. Cebu, I love you really!!!! :) You offered us a lot, more than the great and gwapa people you have. It would be great to vist you again. I don't know when would that be. But I will. :D

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Do Rather than Talk

Most people might think that I don't have the mind, the capabilities to do the tasks that I do. But I want to defend myself that I am independent and can do things and find ways on my own way. I myself might be less confident and not know how to stand on my own feet. But on a positive note, I still have the skills and capabilties that others might not have. I'm not that too loud and braggy about what I should do and what could I do. For other people who thinks that I'm a less of a gain, that I am just nobody, I want to say that I am not just good in explaining and does want to talk less but rather do what I can do.

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Isip-isip Mula sa Biyahe

Naisip ko lang nung isang araw, habang nasa biyahe papuntang Baguio, na ang mga naisusulat ko sa blog na ito ay iilan lamang, iilan, mumunti s alibo-libong mga ideya, pandama, pagpapahiwatig na nais kung isulat sa blog. Iyon ay dahil lagi kong nakakalimutan ang naisip kong dapat isulat dahil maganda iyon, totoo iyon, at may sense iyon para sa akin. At sa dami ng aking iniisip na isulit, maari na siguro akong makapagproduce ng isnag libro., isang libro na puno ng tagpi-tagping ideya sa pang-araw-araw ko na mahalaga at tiyak na makakaugnay sa sinomang magbabasa. :)

Random thoughts:

Huwag kang magpapasa ng mga frustrations mo s aibang tao. May sarili din akong frustrations. Ang pagpasa ng mga frustrations sa ibang tao, ay nakakaapekto nang masama sa ibnag tao. Ang salita, na binubuo lamang ng mga letra ay nakakasakit at nakakaapekto lalo na kung bumubuo  na ng pangungusap at nagbibigay ng kahuluganna na nagpapahiwatig ng kamalian at kapintasan.

Hindi ka perpekto. Ayos lang ang isa sa isang araw, o kahit hanggang tatlo na magsabi sa kapwa. Ngunit kung magsasalita ka, tingnan mo muna ang sarili mo. at tingnan mo muna kung tama ba ang mga sinabi mo. kung wala kang damdamin,m mayroon ang iba. hindi sila ikaw, oo alam mo iyon, pero paano kung ikaw ang nasa mga paa nila. anong mararamdaman mo?

Part II:
Bigla ko lang naisip kung kailan ako ikakasal. Kakanood ko lang ng kasal ng isang kapamilya. Ang sarap ng pakiramdam na ang dalawang kinakasal ay mukhang masaya at perpekto para sa isa't-isa. Sabi ng pari nung misa, mas maganda daw na ang asawa mo ay isang tunay na kaibigan, mas madlaing magtulungan for better or for worst. Ayokong mag-isa. Iyon ang napagtanto ko. Pero mahirap yan gawin kung wala namang naghahanap sa iyo. Soulmate ba. Hehe. Alam ko masama magsabi nito, kasi m,insna opposites ang dumarating. Pero ang hiling ko lang, dumating siya na tamang tao para sa akin sa tamang panahon. Yung tao na tatanggapin ako sa kung sino at ano ako. Yung hindi ako sasaktan at iiwan tulad ng trending sa mga relasyon ngayon. :( Tested na iyon na mahina ako pagdating sa love. Marupok, madaling masaktan. Pero grabeeeeee, huhuhuhu. Alam kong part din yon, pero pwedeng yung hindi grabeng masakit? Hay. Lord, ikaw na bahala sa akin.

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