I HATE THIS FEELING

I HATE THIS FEELING. SAD. THIS FEELING WHEN ALL PEOPLE AROUND YOU IS ALREADY MOVING ON WITH THEIR LIFE. LEAVING YOU  UNINTENTIONALLY, AND CONSEQUENTLY WILL BE GOING TO BE PART OF THERE PAST. YOUR PAST TOO BUT NO FURTHER STEPS FOR ME TOO LOOK FORWARD WITH THEM.

I HATE THIS FEELING. COLD. THIS FEELING ALONE, NOT BECAUSE YOU WANT TO  BUT IT'S HOW IT SHOULD WORK.

I HATE THIS FEELING. FEELING OLD. TO ACCEPT THIS ALL, I MUST FACE THEM AND CONTINUE TO GO WITH THE FLOW. MOVE FORWARD ALSO, BECAUSE IF NOT.  I'LL BE CAUGHT OFF GUARD LEAVING MYSELF BEHIND EVERYONE ELSE. THINKING AS AN GROWN-UP, I HATE THIS. THAT YOU NEED TO CONSIDER EVERYTHING ELSE IN THE WORLD, LEAVING AWAY ALL THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY. OTHERWISE, REST OF YOUR LIFE WILL BE MISERABLE.

I HATE THIS FEELING. MISERABLE. NOT KNOWING AND DOING WHAT I WANT TO DO. GETTING CAUGHT UP WITH THE SYSTEM,  WITH THIS STEREOTYPICAL IDEOLOGIES AND HAPPENNINGS, WITH WHERE I BELONG IN THE HEIRARCHICHAL SOCIETY. SOCIETY  WHERE IN MONEY IS IMPORTANT THAN EVERYTHING ELSE.

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Last Na

Hindi ko alam kung napapagaya na lang ako sa nararamdaman ng ibang tao. Galit, inis, irita. Alam kong walang dahilan para sa akin na maramdaman yun. Pero hidni ko alam kung bakit.  Pag naiisip ko yung ginawa mo kay kaibigan 1, hindi ko maiwasan na mairita rin sayo. Wala kang ginawa. Yun ang problema. Nagsabi ka ng masyadong ng totoo. Yun ang problema. Hindi ko alam kung anong nararamdaman mo ngayon . Hindi ko alam kung may pandama ka, sa totoo lang. Pero sana nga, ngayon ko lang naisip, na inisip mo muna na magkaibgan kayo. Kahit yun na lang. Siguro nga hindi magalings a salita, tulad ng sabi mo. Pero mahirap bam aging kaibgan? Hindi ba universal yun?

Pag naiisip ko na nagkaroon din ako ng pagkagusto sayo. Nasusuka na alng ako/ Sopbrang TO ka. Andaming issues. Though, parehas tayo ng interes. Marahil sa pagtingin sa bahay at willing to try sa ilang mga bagay. May something nga na nakakabanas sa’yo. Masyado kang kampante, hindi ka marunong maglabas ng saloobin, hindi ka marunong maging kaibigan. (Ilayo na natin ang usapang pera) Ewan ko ba, [pero pag nakikita ko palang ang pangalan mo nakakaramdam na ako ng bwiset. Pero sige, aaminin kong, kaibigan pa rin ang tingin ko sa’yo. Hanggangd oon na lang at pasalamat ako at hindi ako yung main tao na involvd an nasaktan at nagrisk. Iniisip ko baka bakla ka nga. Pero, problema mo nay un.

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Mount Pinatubo

Here are the pics converted to one gif. :))

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