Cause I can't stop to think about it and feel something

And Yes! I need a new entry for this. HAHAHA. Huhuhuhu.


Ok. Gahd. So di ko alam. LOL. Naguguluhan na ako. Ayoko magtiwala sa sabi-sabi ng iba, Ayoko din magtiwala sa instinct na lalong nakakagulo ng isip at uhmm... puso ko? Hahahaha Kasiiiiiii namaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnn. I can't explain why THIS SHIT bothers me. Like, no way? I don't know the exact words of her. Pero this goes like "Feeling ko talaga sayo may something si TOOT. Kasi lagi ka niyang hinaharot. Ako waley talaga." Or parang "Feeling ko sayo may something si TOOT." Gusto ko sanang sabihin na "Pls. Elaborate..." But my mind directly said, "Hindi talaga."

And I defended pa sa sinabi ng isa na "Parang hindi yun JOKE." Having told them about some experiences. But I never really took it as a joke. Hello, edi sana hindi na ako affected ngayon. Huhu. Pero myself said na Hindi talaga yun joke. Pero oks lang kasi friends friends naman. But I'm still affected. Why????

Yo, hindi ako manhid. Pero gosh. Ang hirap bitbitin nito na ako lang mag-isa ah. As in WTF. Ikaw lang (ako) nag-a-assume. Gusto ko ng kasagutan. And ito pa. Pag kinakausap ko siya online or sa text. Parang feeling ko pahiya ako at ang kulit ko. pampam lang ang peg. Huhuhuhu. Bakit wala kang emosyon? :( So does my instinct failed me? So everything meant nothing?!


Lord, again, I'm asking for your guide. Please help my heart and mind stop if everything is all falling into pieces, into nothing. Cause I can't stop to think about it and feel something. :/